Stop being fooled with everything again and Stop doing amendment of the loss for which you are not at all responsible and when you know clearly about the other person that he or she has been gone. You know that they will not come back until and unless they will need you again or they will feel like that because they can not refuel you the way you fueled them when they needed the emtional support and a back bone which stands by them and subsides the other pain and losses which have been keen to them from so long.
Take a deep breathe and then think about those people whom your mind recalled just by reading the very first abstract.
It was just an irony that I couldn’t understand that the ultimate healer of your heart actually kills all of us and you did the same to me. This is not to certify any specific person and nobody is going to hang them with a noose or eventually going to strangle them.
No , it is for all those people who have left and could never understand what actually a mental and emotional break down means or how does it feel. It kills all the parts of your body gradually but severely.
It is like the high grade cancer , about which you don’t get to know earlier but when you get to know things get out of your hand. I never realised the pain which I was giving to my eyes by just looking at the same thing again and again , by teasing my eyes so deliberately by the tears which were not necessary. As an action or normal function of body , removal of waste water in the form of tears is one thing but crying for something which can not be yours and which doesn’t want to be yours is just so pathetic but , Yes everybody should laugh at this because which we attract these kind of things and people as well once in your life. Now laugh out loud. Haha!
Deep inside your heart , there lives a person who’s unaware of all the heartbreaks and mental pain which you have been receiving since time because that person is such a pure soul and can not think badly about anybody even about those who never gave a shit about them.
Everything has it’s peak level you know and when the pain crosses it’s limits it doesn’t send the impulses to brain because then it send impusle to your heart and the person who lives there so peacefully that nobody can break the cage of his goodness suddenly awakes and somehow finds courage to speak what’s right for that specific moment. So as it did for me. We can not willingly spew unnecessary or even necessary things to people who’ve done bad for us because we have not been gifted with that in our upbringing. So people like me can only speak their heart like this and I also have choosen this for everybody who feels the same when reads these words and relates them with themselves.
To all those people , Here is a Deep message for you all.
“I have failed.
I have been brutally broken and lost just like a broken star.
But those tears and those hugs of yours , have been saved safely in my heart and the tears and pain of yours also belongs to me not to you because somehow I have accepted them so nicely.
My dreams which I saw has been flown away with my tears.
All the lovely moments has a special place in my heart only.
But you never understood my love and pain. Never.
Alone ? Yes all alone.
I have spent my time all alone crying and have seen tears falling apart from my eyes second by second.
I struggled and I survived but you never paid efforts to see whether I am okay or not and you never called my name or saw my shivering hands when we shaked hands.
There’s a deep loneliness nothing else which surrounds me from all around.
And I talk about you by myself only.
You never understood my love.
You never understood my pain.
Even though you also loved me but still you didn’t understand because you took your love as a contract not as a commitment and promise of togetherness.
But people still call me your shadow and I feel lost in the whole crowd and I say when people ask me I feel so lonely without you because you are more like a part of me.
The very common saying that “the one who breaks your heart actually lives in your Heart” is just so true.
It’s your loss not mine that you couldn’t love me back.
And I can not pay my every piece of innocence and emotions as ransom.
Actually it’s good somewhere that You didn’t linger here and didn’t hold onto what was precious because I couldn’t have survived with lot’s of love.
But if you would have seen all this from my eyes then things would have been different.
You would have known that this was something special , surprisingly very special.
I only felt gleem and pitty for this , that you didn’t even try for an ounce of it. You couldn’t ask me to stay when I actually broke up with myself.
But it’s Okay.
I actually wouldn’t have survived with this much weightage of love.
I never thought of meeting you like this , and though I will not be able to be with you.
Don’t worry I will never hold any grudges and no complaints but true blessings and love for you will always be there.
And now nothing had left which should be spoken.
You did what you want.
I don’t know if I will be alive or not but I hope you will think of changing your answer once when I will not be there roaming near by your house.
And will also remember me in the days of darkness , in the very tough days and in the days when nobody will offer you a company to rely on or a shoulder to cry on. ”
With lot’s of love.
A very big thankyou to those people who have made me strong for handling these things a way easier than before but they also didn’t prepare me for not being fooled like this always.